The last two weeks have been an avalanche of great sorrow and taking refuge in the sweet presence of King Jesus has helped give me certain peace amidst the ebb and flow of the waves of life which sometimes crash ashore and leave me gasping for air, disoriented, and confused.
I thought I was doing well with the recent tragic death of my 22 year old nephew. The sad situation has layer upon layer of unanswered questions with pending homicide charges and the involvement of drugs. Society has become all to accustomed to these acts of violence; heartless with no conviction of what is good and true. It is a sad state to see so many seeking what they can never find in useless moments of abuse to try and escape reality and find peace. I am deeply saddened and find myself not knowing what to do to ease the pain of my brother and his wife, my parents, and others in the loss of one young life cut to short.
Immediately following the funeral, I left to meet my husband and oldest son to make the trip to Middle Tennessee State University in Murfreesboro, TN where my son will attend his freshmen year in college. I am proud of the quiet giant and his happiness has made the transition a bit easier. But after one week of being away from him (13.5 hours), I miss him immensely. I have lost a part of me and the satisfaction of knowing he is happy does not cool my desire to hear his voice or just want to wrap my arms around him in a big hug.
In the midst of all the toil and chaos happening around me, I find myself ever more desperately seeking quiet moments with my heavenly Father. Believe me...I am not perfect. I have been angry and cried a lot of tears and my husband one night took the brunt of my emotions in a dismal display of me "wigging out". But that is exactly why I need Jesus. This is why we ALL need Jesus! He takes the helpless situation and breaths life into certain death. He comforts. He never leaves us nor forsakes us. He is an ever present help in times of trouble. But most of all I love His grace and mercy which pardons my wretched sinfulness. He forgives me. Every road no matter how painful always leads me back to Him. But Christ is a choice for all to make. I am so glad I have a friend who never fails me....no matter what! Don't walk, but run to God! He is waiting for you!
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