Thursday, October 30, 2014

Let God be God


How many times must I walk this path of shattered glass upon my footsteps? The bleeding from today has not yet stopped and I know a bandage to cover the wound will not heal it. The tears have not come like they have in the past. Anger has replaced them. The pain has never left…it always remains…even after years of brokenness.
 
I can’t wait until morning. I know somewhere in the Bible it states that joy always comes in the morning. This is why I am anxious for the dawn of a new day to come. I want joy and not the defeat I feel at the moment. Maybe defeat is not the right word…it should be sorrow. My heart is sad. My “off” switch is turned “on”. ..I am numb.
I don’t know what to do.
 I can’t fix a person.
Only God can.
My pleas have fallen on deaf ears and a mouth which confesses it grieves the Holy Spirit. What then is left for me to do? Walk away I guess and let God be God.

Psalm 91
1 Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High
will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.
2 I will say of the Lord, “He is my refuge and my fortress,
my God, in whom I trust.”
3 Surely he will save you
from the fowler’s snare
and from the deadly pestilence.
4 He will cover you with his feathers,
and under his wings you will find refuge;
his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.
5 You will not fear the terror of night,
nor the arrow that flies by day,
6 nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness,
nor the plague that destroys at midday.
7 A thousand may fall at your side,
ten thousand at your right hand,
but it will not come near you.
8 You will only observe with your eyes
and see the punishment of the wicked.
9 If you say, “The Lord is my refuge,”
and you make the Most High your dwelling,
10 no harm will overtake you,
no disaster will come near your tent.
11 For he will command his angels concerning you
to guard you in all your ways;
12 they will lift you up in their hands,
so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.
13 You will tread on the lion and the cobra;
you will trample the great lion and the serpent.
14 “Because he loves me,” says the Lord, “I will rescue him;
I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
15 He will call on me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble,
I will deliver him and honor him.
16 With long life I will satisfy him
and show him my salvation.”