I have been reminded again
today that all we do is not for the attention or acknowledgement of man, but what
we do we should do as unto the Lord. Sometimes I work tirelessly to be a people
pleaser which is not a good thing. Then when I give my all day in and day out
and the nay sayers are still complaining as they try desperately to find
something wrong with the work I perform….well I just breakdown entirely. I then
realize my desperate attempt to please man leads nowhere but only to a foolish
hearts end and a really bad day.
You see everyone has a story. I
have a story that has a lot of not so good parts to it. For years, I dwelt on
the not so good side of my life blaming others. But then somewhere along the
way about 10 or so years ago, I realized I had a choice. I could choose joy and
happiness or stay stuck in the misery of unfortunate things that had happened to
me. I chose joy and happiness and I absolutely refuse to continue in
circumstances and situations that cause me undue stress and try to steal the
very part of my heart I try to protect.
I tried to do the right thing
today and give my two week notice at my job because I took a new job with
another company. There was no way I could do both for an extended period of
time. I was nervous enough about having to talk to my boss about it and things
just went from bad to worse very quickly. I sat shocked and amazed shaking my
head defending myself against untruths. My protection mode started to set
alarms off and doors started to close immediately to just stop the madness and
not let it continue any longer. I was a
very good worker…hard worker…always lending a helping hand…and most respectful to
the residents I cared for every day. I loved them all. I just wanted to give a
two week notice, but ended up quitting because I felt in my heart I was going
to have a miserable two weeks of what I was experiencing at that moment.
The funny thing is…God knew
this was going to happen today. It wasn’t my intention to quit. Am I right or
wrong? I don’t know. But I do know the Lord has only good for me in mind and
even though I have been in the ditch today, His loving arms have extended down
to this cold dark place to comfort me.
1 comment:
Hey Shannon- I hear you, and feel for you, deeply. Once, I also walked out of a job because things were just so bad I couldn't cope with being there while I worked out my 2 weeks notice. God knows our hearts- He worked it all out for me- as He will do for you. The biggest thing is to shut up the voice of the accuser by bringing our thoughts into captivity to Christ Jesus, so we don't continue to beat ourselves up- and the second thing is to forgive ourselves!
In fact we did what was right for us- and we are important too- not just everyone else!
May the Lord lead you on from this time with His wonderful peace guarding your heart and mind.
IT WILL be OK- God sees to that.
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